suicidal sadness

It saddens me that so many people out there are suicidal, depressed, cutting themselves or silently going through pain.

In this world people shouldn't have to suffer alone. Nobody has to feel so down that cutting or suicide is only way they can cope with it. It's a great shock to my system knowing someone close to me feels like this. All you have to do is be a shoulder to cry on, a friend to chat to or a person to welcome them into your heart.... not exactly pick up the pieces and solve their problems but, help them know you care and are there for them.

Some people might think being alone is better as nobody can hurt them.

Unfortunately it's not the case. They only go and hurt themselves. We are social creatures and the feeling of being alone is better, is unhealthy. Sooner or later you'd need help in life and nobody is there to help and you're left crying and struggling. 

 Say to the world "you don't have to put me down...I'm better than you" 

The world is a big scary place if you let it suck you in. Yes there is a lot of negative things out there.
There are a lot of great things too. If everyone was negative, depressed and thinking the world is too much of a struggle...nobody would get up in morning and it would be a stand still of life. 
Nobody to fill supermarkets for food, nobody to clean up, no friendships made and nobody to save your life when your ill as we'd all be too depressed to live.

So, moral of this message is to be someone's shoulder to cry on and if you're in unfortunate event of being depressed... look up at the stars and say "You don't have to out me down, I can get through this" 

There is always a star shining just for you. A star out there shining and guiding you on.

nyc bubble gum cat

Wouldn't it be hard to be a cat in new york.
Id be scared to go out very far if I was a cat. The busy life style would freak me out. Everything would be so big in big apple compared to yourself.
You'd need some sweet kitty swag.
Or even any big city to be honest.

Then again in a big city there would be loads of cats to keep each cat entertained. 

Aww that's nice.

But intimidating for a little cat in a vast place. 

I put quotes on social media summing up how I feel about you. Wishing you'd get the hint that you're the one I dream of being with.
Rather than talking to you because I'm too shy to comprehend the matter and think the guy should make the first move.
Instead I post statuses and wear what I call awesome outfits with unique style to get your attention////while I lust over you. aww man.

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At least I used too...until I found someone else and got over you.
Still think every once in a while what it be like if we got together. I just got to dream but, right now the new guy is awesome.

If you do post statuses about the person you wish to date and he/she isn't responding I suggest talking to them. Friendly conversation to start with. Just sitting back isn't going to get you anywhere...nowhere positive that is.
The longer you do nothing like talking to this person the more chance they will go and find another person to date. Right now they might like you back but because you do nothing to gain friendship they probably think you're not interested.

In short tag the person in the status...or be brave and chat to this person you dream to date.

Mint choc chip icecream make it okay.

I say I'm okay when I'm not. I want someone to pick up the pieces but no...I just carry on eating mint choc chip ice cream to make life feel better.

When people are quick to say "I'm fine" or "I'm ok" most likely they are not or they just want you to leave them alone.

So many people out there put a mask on life. They fake it to make it. They smile on the outside when they're crying on the inside. They pretend to be someone they are not.

It saddens me to think that lots of people out there are not true to themselves and hide away true feelings and selves. Some people don't have a shoulder to cry on or a trustworthy person to rely on/confide in.

Maybe you be that person who doesn't let a fast "I'm fine" or "I'm ok" slide.  Be someone who says "I know you're not".

People are quick to judge?

It hurts when people are quick to blame you for something they don't really know who did it and say it is you for a petty reason.
Such as an account on a website being hacked and as you are the newest member they think you are the culprit.

People get judged so quickly these days...at job interviews, the media, an outfit choice, the way you talk...all types of ways.
I wish people would get of their high horse and not cliche people up and stereotype and just get to know someone before they know if they are right for a situation or relationship (friend or more interment).

YOU CAN GET YOURSELF INTO TROUBLE BY JUMPING INTO CONCLUSIONS

Society tells you to be yourself and for why? To have the world judge you for it. Real nonsense.
In my opinion I'd love it if people could be nicer to others and not ridicule others for slightest difference they may have from themselves.
Do people do that to make themselves feel better...sadly some do...do they do it to try and fit in to social conventions....(whoever formed these I don't know).
E.g. who told us to be popular/successful you have to look and act a certain way...SOCIETY.

No two people are the same yet most of society try to squeeze you in a box and push you out the other side as cardboard clones.

People who are quick to judge you are infact the ones who can hurt you the most or do the opposite and make you strive for better and to prove them wrong. 

Letter to 12 year old me.

Dear 12 year old me,

You feel like you don't belong being the shy one sitting on the outside. Believe in yourself as life is what you make it. So, talk to those you like but, don't worry if they don't like you for who you are because people out there will. If you like them don't be afraid to show it or risk loosing people from your life that mean a lot.

Don't let those who are mean to you get to you. Be strong and happiness comes and goes in your life and don't take family for granted.
You will slowly gain confidence and achieve wonderful things as much as people feel like they're getting in your way. Carry on living how you feel is right for you and bottling up hardships will not help anyone.
You are beautiful no matter what people out there say and though you look young your cuteness and sweetness shines through to those who love you.
One tip is if you dislike something that happens like someone saying your idea is bad then do not sit quiet and let them put a stop to your idea. If you think it will work then carry on as you are beautiful and only you know what works for you.

Keep smiling through and stick by the one guy who loves you most.
Lots of hugs your 21 year old self.

Life is a game...

Life is a game we all play with rules given to us, some to be learnt and others to be followed or even broken.... AND we all dream for life to be our version of perfect but it never really is so. 

We have to learn to fit in like a jigsaw puzzle piece the best we can. 

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 There isn't really any easy way to do this life business. You can sit there and suffer in silence thinking 'I hate my life' or some other negative thought...hurting yourself is another way people cope. OR You can get off your backside and do something about whatever you dislike about life. Sitting there everyday wishing life would change in any way shape or form while going about life the same way you do everyday is stupid. It's the way many people go about life.

 Everyone is in a sea of people struggling for a place they belong. It's a game. It's unfair. It's a challenge. I am one lonely person trying to swim to the surface of the people but pushed down by the current or swarm of people leaping above me like dolphins out of the water.

 What I'm trying to say is that life is not easy even for those who you think is. (they're probably good at hiding it) If you dislike how life is going right now then try and change it. Move away from people who bring down life or change the way you think of life. p.s. I'm not saying I am winning this life game. I'm clearly stating you are not the only person who wants a perfect version of life for them.